Lotsa Stuff

So much is happening so fast that it is hard to get it all in!! I will try, however...let's see - I think I was last talking about Plumb Line - wow! That was over a week ago!! To be honest, it's hard to keep up this blog when it seems that no one is reading it. I have my own personal journal plus the class journal I am keeping, so it seems silly to keep this blog just for myself. However, there were several people who said they were reading it and enjoying it when I went home over Christmas, so I am continuing to post here because of that.

Well, back in Plumb Line - wow, what a week that was!! Such healing! The basics of Plumb Line is that God's perfect Love is the Plumb Line, and then examining where we get off Plumb with different things that happen in our lives...I'll try to demonstrate it below...

Plumb

Sadness Hostility
Self-Pity Conceit
Self-Hatred Sophistication
Depression Elation/Deflation
Apathy Superiority
Inferiority Competitive
Insecurity Dominant
Failure Rigid
Guilt Manipulative
Dimness Stubborn
Dying Unteachable
Despairing Delusion
Discouraged Bitterness/Resentment
Quenched
(put out) Critical
Suicide Controlling
Posssessive
Homicide

REJECTION REBELLION
The sin: The sin:
Unbelief Pride

The entire thing is then split into 4 quadrants, wiht each indicating different directions people go with these feelings...on the Rejection side there is a Compliant and a "Can't Do It" Mentality. On the Rebellion side there is Competitve and Critical. Each of us spent time thinking about where we were at - I was definitely acting out of rejection and had a compliant spirit (yes, I know I hide it well! HAHA). A lot of people swing between different things, adn we all manifest all of them at different times, but the one you go to most is the root one.

Anyway, on Thursday we had a time of healing and it was so awesome. Everyone had a chance to go forward and just receive prayer for things that had happened in their lives - it wasn't a big "tell all" of all our deepest sins or anything - but a really supportive and uplifting time. On Friday we then talked about how to "walk" in the healing. This was really tough for me and I was under a huge amount of warfard throughout Friday, the weekend and Monday. Everywhere I turned I was feeling rejected and lonely. Comparison was coming in the back door and I was discouraged that everyone else seemed so free. Finally on Monday night I was able to pray it through with my mom and I really finally felt the breakthrough and the Freedom came! Amen! So, I can say that I am FREE of rejection, comparison, self-hatred, unworthiness, loneliness, unbelief, fear, lust, guilt, fear - gone!! Oh, I know they will still come knocking, but I don't believe them anymore...I'm finding my identity in Christ, and it is overcoming the lies I've believed my whold life!

So that was an exciting week!! Then last week, we were learning about "Hearing God's Voice" and the ways in which God speaks to us. Since I know you are interested (hehe)...here are some of the ways -
1. Through His Word
2. Through the inner witness fof the Holy Spirit
3. Through our conscience
4. Through circumstance
5. Through visions
6. Through dreams (be careful it wasn't just the pizza)
7. By His audible voice
8. Through Angels
9. Through gifts of the Spirit
10. Through songs, hymns and instruments
11. Through others (test this as we are all human and make mistakes)
12. Through feelings and emotions (REALLY test this as we get caught up in them, but they can lie to us!)
13. Through creation
14. Through the arts
15. Through supernatural signs and wonders

So, that was so encouraging and really helped me to see that, Yes, Indeed, I can hear God's voice!! Very cool! Then on Thursday we had a day of the leaders prophesying over us...wow - was that cool or what??? These were leaders here in the school who really don't know us at all, so it was really interesting what some of them said. They prophesied over me and it was so uplfiting! Then on Friday we had a time when we were to ask God some questions of our own...specifically, what does he thinkg of me and what are his plans for me? We had only 20 minutes to do this, and then we got into a group and shared what God had said...it was awesome. Some of the things he said to me where that I was joy, and encourager and a love-giver, that this is my Spring season and there is pure, sparkling water pouring forth. There was lots more, but that is an idea. If you'd like more specifics, email me! ;)

We've begun to see some really powerful stuff happening in our group. It all seemed to be happening to one girl Tracy, but now others, too! She was struggling financially and had some money come in at really *coincidental* times. Then, she was led to Esther and at the same time her prayer partner was also led there...and so gave her a card with the verses in it...well, the card happened to be a "Bridal Shower" card...and guess what happened that same night??? Yep...her boyfriend propsosed! Now, note...her prayer partner had no idea about the Esther passage. Her boyfriend is in Colorado going through another school right now and also knew nothing of this. She's sooo excited!!

Sunday we went to this big church up in Redding and me and this guy in our class, Marcus, went and bought hot chocolate/coffee to drink during service. Everywhere we went, we were in the way and it was a little frustrating. Then, there was no Sunday School for the kids, so Sierra was in the service and was having a bad attitude about that. We had driven an hour and a half to get there. As we were waalking ot our seats for service, they told us we coulnd't be in the sanctuary with drinks and so we had to go outside. We were pretty irritated!! Finally, we go back in and go to our seats we had reserved....only to find people sitting in them!!! So we then had to go and find seats in the very last row. Well, you know I had to spend the first 10 minutes just repenting for my bad attitude!! A little later we were asked if we wanted prayer for healing for different things....Marcus ended up raising his hand for finances and I also raised my hand for some physical healing. They had people around us pray for us and this lady prayed for Marcus. A little while later she asked him if he needed a job, and explained no, we are an hour and a half away and studying full time to be missionaries. Then, a little while after that she turned around again and said she and her husband had been really blessed and handed him a check.....for $500!!! I was so excited!! He was just sort of in shock! After he told everyone and the whole class is really jazzed. The next day some lady went to his mom's house and gave her a check for $400 to give to him - another total stranger! So, like I said - things are happeneing!!!

This week we are going deeper into the charachter of God and his Father's heart. Every weeek is just so wonderful and we are really learning so much and it is moving so fast. I can't believe it's been 6 weeks already!!! We are coming home this weekend to see everyone, so that'll be cool. I'll post some pictures soon, too.